Heather's Journal

1:14pm: hey everyone my new lj name is .... bowlofcherries...

12:29am: if i wasnt filled w/rage and anger right now... i just might be pleased.

7:13pm: the story of ted.
Ted kissed me last night! haha i laughed... I was out w/tricia, nikki, ania, and kris pix. Well we went to this one house.. and this guy ted was there. I think his real name was bob... anyways he sat on tricia. so i kept calling him ted. He got annoyed. He was mad at me. I continued. He grabbed nikki's chest then kissed the 3 of us. Poor ted. Then he got really drunk and wasn't moving. Since none of us drank it was funny. We felt concerned however. As of now... im hooked on this coffee drink that i made at nikki's last night. I bought some for myself... I had 4 glasses in the last hour and 1/2. Also i am running on about 2-3 hours of sleep. And i feel GREAT! well im out.

8:58pm: Motivate Myself.
Just get out and do something. Anything. Just do it.

12:01am: LOLLAPALOOZA
today was great. I felt guilty all day however. I really felt bad for "ditching" nikole. I hope to see her tomorrow and forever!!!i got her a button.. It is kool! but i am very tired. I bought some stuff today. Talked to the kid in the green hat! haha and got hit on w/ania by a guy who thought we were over 21 b/c he wanted beer. That made me laugh. Brandon Boyd rocks. He is a very sexy man. i bought a watch! then i layed on the grass and i felt very tired. I layed down like i sad then fell asleep. I didnt mean to ... it just happened. oh well.

Amanda and Tim-May thank you. I will call you both tomorrow.

10:37pm: HELP!!
I need a ride to albion college! If anyone can take me.. Please take me w/you. On the flip side of things i really have nothing to write about.. hmmm.

Nicole Chaney i have a problem... I was going to call you... But i relized something. I am missing your Number.. so call me or leave it for me!! Thank you sooooo much. I love you!

11:57pm: "It's Time Now - To Sing Out
Tho' The Story Never Ends
Let's Celebrate
Remember A Year In The Life Of Friends"

Jess, Angie, Mark, Kevin, I've seen you guys pull so much this week. Nicki and Becky you are so strong. And the cattaneo's. To everyone else as well your amazing

11:51pm: a thank you
I am so thankful to have all of you as my friends. I am breaking down in tears on behalf of this. If you weren't here I wouldnt know where to begin. Thank you for always caring.

11:04pm: Chris You are Missed...
One Of These Days


One of these I'm gonna fly
Over the mountain
One of theses days I'm gonna ride
On the silver lining
One of these days I'm gonna witness
All I've been missing
One of these days
One of these days I'm gonna do
All the things I've never done
I'm gonna finish all the races
That I've run but I've never won
I'm gonna see a million faces
And recognize every one
One of these days


One of these days
I'm gonna see the hands
that took the nails for me
One of these days
I'm gonna hold the keys
to the mansion built for me
One of these days
I'm gonna walk the streets of gold
that were paved for me
One of these days
I'm gonna see my Savior face to face
One of these days


One of these days I'm gonna see
Just what became of me
On the day that I believed
And you took myself from me
And I believe that I will see
What I'd have been if you didn't save me
One of these days

One of these days I'm gonna talk
With all the saints that have gone before
In their sandals I will walk
And we will sit upon the shore
And I will learn all the things
That I never knew before
All this and more


One of these days
I'm gonna see the hands
that took the nails for me
One of these days
I'm gonna hold the keys
to the mansion built for me
One of these days
I'm gonna walk the streets of gold
that were paved for me
One of these days
I'm gonna see my Savior face to face
One of these days



One of these days I'm gonna be
In a place where there's no more need
No more pain and no more grief
No more foolish disbelief
Ah the joy that there will be
When at last we finally see
One of these days



I'm gonna see my Jesus face to face
One of these days

9:23pm: my sunglasses are amazing!
last night around 9pm, i got in a really bad car accident. Thankfully i am ok. This guy blew a red light and hit us at about 50mph. He was in an old toyota camry.. and dragged us nearly 50ft. He hit the passanger side where i was. He missed my side door by inches. Thank god. Anyways... I hit my head against the side door really hard. (i hate bumps) and my sunglasses that i bought at warped tour last year flew out the window. Well after the whole thing i went into the street and gave laura procter a hug...(she was passing by) and laying in the street next to all the shattered glass and twisted metal... MY SUNGLASSES!! i was excited. Nothing happened to them! They have lasted through everything. But now time to look for a new car. and sleep. I have tennis in the morning. oh this sucks.... i have no bruises on me at all except the one the size of my fist on my ass... how did i get it?? its crazy.. owch i hurt!!!!!

8:09pm: sweet nothings
an orange horizon

5:22pm: july 4th
happy fourth of july.

3:25pm: at kelly greens
i went tubing. Kelly and my brother are assholes tho. they decided they wanted to toss me reall high. well i did. not only did i fly off and roll a few times i slammed on my side and i couldnt breath. my side is all bruised. it really hurt. All is well tho. I went back on again. Good times most. def.

10:44pm: steak n'shake
the other night jenna, kyle, arianne, and myself decided to see a movie then goto steak n'shake.. well i didn't have any money so i got water. At the end our bill totalled $8.11. We asked our waiter what we should do and he told us to walk out. Well we gave him $6 and then he came back to our table and told us to leave. We left. Then at 2 am. the cops get a hold of kyle then us. They said we need to pay $500 or 90 days in jail. What the hell. We went and spoke to the manager. Our fucking waiter pocketed our money. All we had to do was pay the check again. Thank god. What a night.

3:51pm: To the perfect daughter
Yes Kimmie. You are the perfect daughter. as well what am i? to you worthless.. It is you that is always right and I wrong. I am the "bitch" while i see you ignorant and deceptive. While I push myself to get the grades and scholarships, you plan new lies, a "better life", and who to manipulate next w/your new deceptions. You sit there and complain about your boyfriend w/your new friend of the week telling her lies and trying to make me believe, while i sit there and wonder how could you do such a horrendous things to your SISTER? Is it not for me to be happy? Must you insist on ruining everything for me? What games do you play inside your head? I no i am in high school. But I am waiting for the day to graduate while you still believe you are in it. W/out that drama in your life you are no one and you fear this. Perhaps this is what i should expect from now on. I try to believe you again but i hear new lies everytime. Listen to your boyfriend when he tells you to stop talking about all your "graduating" friends or the high schoolers that goto your church. Well once again why dont you finish everything of mine before it even starts for me. Or better, you keep talking about this new improved life style of yours.. Why dont you work on that because im not seeing it...

11:27pm: Meggi
Meggi. You are the sweetest person in the world. You are so thoughtful. I wanted to cry when I saw what you got my brother. It is really setting into me now that Gregory is leaving. When he leaves I never want to loose touch w/you. We will hang out all the time! Even though he wont be gone to long I just wanted to let you know I love you soo much and I am so happy you will always be there. Take care. I will see you tomorrow probably.

11:15pm: for all whom must know
In affairs of the heart, I think I would rather suffer the emotional lows, the slings and arrows of defeat, the self-pity, the loneliness and discontent that comes with not knowing what's next, to the boredom and lethargy of a happy, secure household, knowing quite well what the next sentence, hour, and day will bring.

11:21pm: 2003 seniors you will be missed!
on a different subject.. here is the worst pick up line ever... "Heather, your ass looks like a rollar coaster." - (b/c my pants have a swivel on butt) -"I'd ride it anyday" haha I laughed. Im also pissed off. Court will be held another day for that man.

10:31pm: I lost my innocence its seems....
I watched my brother today get his diploma. I started to cry again b/c I was so happy. I then stopped and began to think. My life isnt the same anymore. My brother's leaving me in August. Im not going to have all the fun times w/him that i came to know. I never had been close to my brother untill this year and now he is gone. Im so confused... When is the next time I am going to spend a winter with him. When he comes out of the air force? I will be starting my life which is only steps away and he will be on his. (i feel beyond my years and I hate it at times. I wish I had someone I could relate or talk to who actually listens. I wish I was one who graduated tonight. At least that way I can reflect my thoughts on those who understand....) and then also who will I extreme bumper sleed w/this year? I know estes will be there. I'm really going to miss gregory. I wish a friend was up. I wish I had my license.. I need to get out of my house and get some air. I need to get to Grosse Pointe. I need to be by the River right now and think. Ponder about tomorrow. Reflect my life tonight. Or blossom heath.. sit on a bridge w/my legs in water. anything to relax the nerve im feeling... I wish I had more than a computer screen to talk too...

6:59pm: I am so happy!
Yesterday was my brothers last day of school! I was crying. I was so happy for him. Then I walked into round table after school only to have anthony throw me into a wall. I have a bump on my head but its ok! Then today rocked. Were moving onto districts! I am in so much pain right now but im so excited I can't wait till tomorrow. well if anyone reads this in the time being call me if you want to watch a movie or hang out. I feel like resting. Bored though very bored...... Congrats all the seniors.. Kathy Lip I will miss you! same w/allison amber and sara pfaff!!!!!!!!!

1:13pm: .....
Serendipity

12:41pm: ummm excuse me jess
i called you the other day. your mom answered and said you weren't home. so hmm... it was the day you needed something to wear. i will give you a call tonight when i get home

8:29pm: sitting at jennas bored.
What to do.... hmmm..... oh and for my team great job against ragina... and 1.2.3... LETS SMOKE WEED. I can't believe skip put my down like that today. Well like he said. "What are you to expect from a red head?" i don't know. well liz we have good morals! and we played awesome! to eveyone else goodbye......

9:33pm: today I cried.....?
I am so frustrated. I blew my knee out. The pain is spreading everywhere. I hate my legs they are so weak. I couldn't take the harassment from my coach today. I thought I worked harder than almost everyone out there but no i was told I suck. well to sum it up. Coach O was a help at least and so was my team. I was placed on Defense a position I never play and I still had more shots on net. Oh well. I suck i guess. I am also pissed I couldn't see amanda in the hospital today. I tried calling but no answer. very sad. I hope she is ok. Well I am going to eat some popsicles alone right now. page me if you want to talk.

Oh and Chris if you are reading this... disappointed...!! Need to get the hair long! but its ok it looks good.

3:31pm: biggest turn off.....
1. Never call me hott in a derogatory meaning
2. Don't insist on asking me for a picture. You want one. get it yourself
3. Don't keep persisting on me to tell you when I have an open day to hang out when I don't even know who you are. Just some guy that thinks I quote "look good" I don't think so. You already lost me there.
4. If you can't have a civilized conversation w/me or talk descent then don't talk at all.
5. If you "want to get to know me better" Impress me first. Calling me sexy and shit doesn't work.

~Some people have nerve. I hate ignorant people~ The following about does not apply to jessica martin or my arm buddy. They can imply anything they want on me!